evangeline

dear evangeline

don’t hate me 

enough people already do

sweet evangeline

my family, my name, my life

nothing in this world has ever been 

mine

absolutely nothing 

except for you

oh evangeline

you were the only good in my life 

so good that you made me think

i could be, too

evangeline

i’ve never had room to be weak

but the way you look at me, 

the way it makes me feel

if only you knew

so why evangeline

why did you tell me 

you wanted to leave?

how dare you

you must know evangeline

i couldn’t control the home i grew up in 

or the way my mother died 

in front of my eyes

but i could control you

darling evangeline

you said you loved me

you do know i hate hearing

things that are not true

evangeline, 

you were a ray of sunlight escaping 

through my calloused fingers

the only choice i had

was to capture you

oh evangeline,

do you get it now? 

do you understand why?

i had to kill you.